Nuel Benjamin

I am just now getting around to telling Nuel's birth story, but when you're done reading hopefully you'll understand why it took me so long! haha

So on December 15th I went to the doctor's office for my usual appointment and they checked me and I was at a 5 and about 85-90% effaced, and having contractions about every 20mins. (I had been having regular contractions for DAYS and it was getting ridiculous!) I have a history of fast deliveries so I was feeling like they should strip my membranes or just break my water or there was just no way I would make it to the hospital. I just asked if there was anything they could do because they monitor the baby for an hour at all of my appointments and noticed my contractions were still coming but they said that they couldn't because office policy wouldn't allow them too. They also sent me to get an ultrasound and found that he has NO room left inside me and that he should come out soon. The ultrasound tech giggled at the thought of me going another week and laughed out loud at the thought of me going to 40 weeks. So with my pelvis pulled apart as far as it could they sent me home with this advise. "if you feel anything different just go into labor and delivery and get checked, really just go into labor and delivery whenever you feel like it, just go in and get checked at least once a day if you need to." or my personal favorite "Call 9-1-1 if you go into labor, so you don't have the baby in the house or car." Needless to say I cried, I have never wanted the stress of a home birth, I can just see it now, my two toddlers trying to figure out what the heck is coming out of Mommy, Rob freaking out because the kids are trying to help and I am having a baby and not in the hospital! The idea to me is ridiculous, I know some women want it or love it, but I am NOT one of them and will never be one of them! I like the security of the hospital, that there are trained professionals there to help assist and if anything should go wrong there is equipment there to help me and the baby. So I went home upset and called a friend to come watch the kids so that I could go on a date with my Hubby because I needed some time with him to feel comforted. My contractions were still coming all through the date and I was exhausted from the continual attack on my body, so we went home. Around 2 in the morning I was still having contractions and they were 2-4 mins apart (this had happened a few times so I was worried they would still send me home and I would just be home and in pain not having the baby) So finally I decided alright lets go in (that was around 3 or 4am)

We get to the hospital and they check me still 5 and 90% (My thought - great here they go just going to send me home again) But we got lucky and the nurse was like let's monitor you for an hour and see what your contractions do, well after an hour I was still contracting every 2 mins but I didn't dilate any further, so she suggested that I walk around for an hour or so and then get monitored again, So I did it was horrible but we went to get checked again after the hour of walking and still very little change so they had me be monitored for an hour but about 30 mins or so into the monitoring I start getting VERY painful contractions and the nurse decided to get the doctor to see is she would strip my membranes because I was just not dilating anymore and clearly in labor and pain. The doctor came in looked at my stuff goes to check me/strip my membranes if needed and as soon as she checks me she tells me I'm at 7.5!! Yah! We were officially getting admitted about 7:30am!

Once I'm in the room and have my IV in I feel like I need to push, they check me and I'm at 9.5, I have really enjoyed giving birth naturally because as soon as your done your done! But I was really tried and wanted some sort of break/relief before I had to push so we decide to get a shot called an intrathecal it's supposed to be a "quick" shot in the back (the needle doesn't stay in you like an epidural) and take 5-10 mins before you feel relief and last for about an hour. And because I was at 9.5 I really didn't have any other pain relief options. I was already exhausted so decided to do it hoping that I would get enough relief to have energy to push.

I am stuck at 9.5 they can't figure out why my one side won't open fully and they don't want me to push, I am waiting to get a shot and fighting the urge to push (which is definitely way more painful then pushing to me) I finally get the shot and they try moving my uterus to get me fully opened, I get to 10 and the shot still hasn't kicked in. So I start pushing and (with my first two I pushed a total of 6-7 times all together) I push for about a half hour and they ask me if I want a break (I am like NO WAY, it's time to get this kid out of me!) and I am just starting to feel the shot kick in! After another 15mins or so he's finally here, a pound and a half bigger than my other two and just perfect! I had to stay in the delivery room for some extra time because I started to hemorrhage and needed to be taken care of/monitored before they could move me.

No words describe the feeling of bringing life into the world, seeing the joy in your husbands face as he holds his little one for the first time. It doesn't matter if it's your 1st or 3rd (I can't speak for any further than that :) but it's amazing. Knowing how absolutely perfect he is and loving him more than life itself and just an incredible overwhelming feeling of love, joy, and comfort. We are so grateful for the blessing of little Nuel in our home.

Now for the part of the story of why it took me so long to write all this! Shortly after delivery I developed an incredible headache, they brought in the anesthesiologists who gave me my shot and lucky goose me I am the 1% who get spinal headaches from the shot and they can't do anything about it till I've had it for 48 hours, and I will not stay there for 48 hours (even though they kept offering it to me) I wanted to get home to my children as soon as possible. Nuel had to get looked at by the pediatrician before we leave and she comes in and looks at his chart and says "this baby is 37 weeks?" I just tell that's what they tell me, and she's like well he looks more mature than the 41 week baby next door. So we were happy to hear that he's absolutely perfect and good to go home. We go home Saturday afternoon, and are so happy to see the kids (they only saw us for a short visit while we were in the hospital.) My headache is still killing me but I am so happy to be home with my babies I try to ignore it. Sunday comes and I feel pretty good we get to see some family who come to visit Mr. Nuel and it was just a nice day. Monday comes and I am dying literally can't do anything so my sweet in-laws take Rocky and Andi before Rob had to go to work so that I could hopefully get better by that night I am in so much pain and then the left side of my face starts to go numb. I call the doctor and ask if I should go in to the ER or make an appointment or what because it's freaking me out that the left side of me is going numb. They tell me to do neither but to call 9-1-1, so I call Rob at work and tell me what's going on and he heads home immediately and got home shortly after the paramedics. They are okay with my vital signs but aren't super happy with my blood pressure or the fact that I am going numb so they test me for stroke, (multiple times.) Then they decide that we need to go to the hospital, luckily Rob was home so he took Nuel and got him in his car seat and was able to follow the ambulance to the hospital. After testing me for stroke again at the hospital and my numbness levels they decide that it's not a stroke but that they don't know why I am going numb besides that it could be my body responding to the pain level from my headache and decide that I need a blood patch in my back, to fix my spinal headache. Unfortunately there are no anesthesiologists available to fix me that night so they let me go home and tell me to be back at the hospital at 8:00am the next morning to have a blood patch done. So I get to the hospital and finally get a blood patch, which really kinda sucks they give you a few shots in your back to numb you and then give you an epidural except instead of giving you medicine they put your own blood in you to fill the hole that is allowing you to loose spinal fluid. After letting me "set" for a couple hours they send me home and I am not allowed to do ANYTHING, the most I'm allowed to do is pick up Nuel (and say only when I have to) and continue to not do anything for 48 hours. My in-laws keep the kids because Rob had to work so that I could follow the doctors orders and get better. Luckily the blood patch worked and all I had was a sore back after the first day! (I had a lot of shots there)

After that we had just a couple days before it was Christmas so we were busy Rob with work and me wrapping and cleaning and being together for the holidays! Which is another story.

Needless to say I would do it all over again to have our little Nuel here, but don't want to be pregnant again for a LONG time...

Waitin' on Baby

Well we've been at 3cm and 80% for about 2 weeks now with no change. (boo) Which I guess is a good thing because when I went grocery shopping I filled my freezer and haven't been able to make my freezer meals yet because theres no room for them! But I have my hospital bag all nice and packed! Baby Blankets are made burp rags and finished and the only thing I could possibly do more to prepare for him is to buy him an outfit that matches his siblings for Christmas! (I probably will because I love the kids in their new shirts (or whole outfits as maybe necessary) for Christmas!) They just look so cute! Who knows maybe I'll go crazy and get Rob and I shirts or sweaters to match too!

We are ALL getting our hair cut today! I am a little nervous (not really nervous but I can't think of a better word) for little Miss Andi to get her hair cut for the first time EVER!! But she's over two and needs it so I decided that instead of me cutting it I would take her to my hair appointment and let her get it done. So Rocky will get his hair cut this afternoon (by me) and then the rest of us are going in to get it done. (Rob can't always have his hair cut by me because 1 I don't like doing it 2 he has SO MUCH hair we need to thin it out every time, but I can't do that (so we do every other hair cut) 3 We really love Clarisa doing our hair!

I got a hair cut that was really bad a few months ago and I have been growing my hair out and Clarisa did a GREAT job fixing it but I still hate the cut it's just not me and I don't like it at all. It's not bad (especially if you would have seen the before, that was HORRID!!) but it's not a cut that I would EVER choose for me and I find it really annoying and just hate it. I've also (before the horrible hair cut) started to grow my hair back out, and now I don't know what to do suffer thru the hair style I don't like or cut it short again into a style I do like. So I'll post pictures of what I decide because at this point I have no idea what to do!

** I wrote the above a few days ago and can't find my camera cord so no pictures sorry! **

Basically you can count this as a separate post...

So here we are about 4 cm and 80%. This is taking forever! I have NEVER felt THIS uncomfortable in a pregnancy, he's really making me want to never get pregnant again...

I now go to the doctor twice a week, and it stinks I get to be monitored for an hour and the bands that they wrap around your belly are HORRIBLE!! (Someone please invent something different to go on the belly when they are monitoring your contractions and babies heart beat!) whoever did the ones they currently have I think were thinking "huh, how can we make a pregnant woman going into labor more uncomfortable?" Because there's just no way to feel comfortable with those around my enormous belly. I also get an ultrasound as well once a week which is fun, unless it takes the full 30mins and then it stinks... because you have to lay uncomfortably while they watch my babies lungs in action.

On the brighter side I get checked twice a week... (I guess it might be a little brighter if there was actual change (like enough that we'd be having the baby) I have LOTS of (awesome) contractions and they get regular and stay regular (about every 5 mins) for about 2 hours and then they begin to get further apart so that has been frustrating. I get so excited like alright time to call Rob and then they stop and I just want to cry.

Crying has been a higher on the list of things that happen lately, because I am so fat and uncomfortable I just don't know what to do, my skin is so tight that it's itchy and just makes you feel like you can't relax! I NEVER sleep, it has been virtually impossible to sleep for more than an hour or so at a time. So now night time and I have a love/hate relationship because I am just so ready for it because I am exhausted but then I can't sleep and can't get comfortable! I guess most people have stopped reading long ago because let's face it this whole post has pretty much been a Sireena let's it all out time.

So let's get to the cute things in life, like how my cutie son wakes up every morning and goes to the Christmas tree and says "Merry Christmas." He also like's to rein-act Mickey's Christmas Carol by putting a key in me (like Scrooge does when he opens the door) he then has me say "Scrooooooooge" and then he (acting as Scrooge) says "Jacob Marley? NO! it can't be!!" then he squeezes my nose and wants my to shout "Ouch!" Sometimes the roles are reversed but either way it's one of the cutest things I have ever seen!

Andi has a long list of things she's afraid of; leaves, turkeys (not real ones fake ones) and Spiders! We have a bad habit of occasionally teasing her and getting a little piece of lint and blowing it in her direction while we yell "Oh No! Spider!" Rocky thinks it's HILARIOUS! Andi screams and cries (a lot) we really need to get it on video! She is our chatty little girl she tells us about everything and all her emotions and tells us what everything is! She never stops talking and 95% of the time I LOVE it!

Well my children and now up from quiet time and it's time to get back to them so the next update will probably/hopefully be announcing our little one has FINALLY arrived!

Food, Wrapping and so much More!

So we ended up in the Labor and Delivery department last week due to some severe pain, and SURPRISE you're already dilated to a 3 and 80% effaced so I had to be monitored for a while. Luckily I didn't continue to progress after an hour so I was able to go home but now knowing that I am moving fast and the nurse predicted a couple weeks tops before I deliver I have A LOT to do! So today I started making my grocery list for all the freezer meals I need to make (hopefully I will get them done this weekend) so that my family will actually eat healthy, warm meals. I think I got a good mix in there so they don't get bored. I also made a grocery list for my children's lunches. I am going to pre-make a bunch and freeze/refrigerate them so that I can easily feed them once this little guy is here. That doesn't sound like much but it took me a little while to finish those lists! haha (I'll take pictures to share once I finish them! It should be interesting!)

I also started to pack my hospital bag. I had a great list when I had my first child and couldn't find it, I have pregnant brain and can't remember what I usually pack or what I wanted! So I started looking all over the internet for a good list... I decided that it doesn't exists, and then I found an okay list from a UK hospital site. Needless to say I had to make my own list; and since I have a few pregnant friends I'll share:

Mommy:

Panties (make sure they are comfy)

Pads (I am not the biggest fan of the ones the hospital gives you)

Nursing pads

Nursing Bra

Facial wipes

Make-up

Shampoo/Conditioner

Pony tail/bobby pins

Suckers

PJ's (I bought a pair of nursing PJ's just incase I am there longer than expected)

Brush

Lotion

Tooth Brush

Tooth Paste

Mouth Wash

Tissues

Deodorant

Going home outfit (something comfy!)

Lanolin cream (I only used it with my first but thought I'd add it for everyone else)

Snacks (I put just something small that I love to eat in my bag because I don't like hospital food)

Daddy:

Tooth Brush

Tooth Paste

Mouth Wash

Deodorant

Hair Glue (or gel or whatever if your Hubby is like mine he appreciates this addition)

PJ's

Extra Shirt

Extra set of Underclothing

Snacks (I have him pick out a few things to stick in the bag, hospital food sucks)

Baby:

Blanket

A couple outfits (I pack a newborn and a 0-3 months size) - to go home in

Onesies

Burp cloth (just because I like mine)

Car Seat

Last Minute Grabs:

Camera

Phone

Phone Charger

I think that's about everything that's in my bag. But I'll add something if I think of it. (My bag is not that big (it's a small duffle bag) it just sounds like a lot, and I get travel sized pretty much everything.)

Now It's time to start wrapping all the Christmas presents for the children so that it's not done last minute and I am not stressed about it. I feel lucky that I finished the kids Christmas shopping weeks ago!

I have a doctor's appointment on Wednesday and we'll see how everything's going then, because you never know, this little boy could all the sudden decide that he is comfy in there and is just settling in and could hold out for 3-4 more weeks or go nuts and wait the full 5 weeks! Lot's to do to get ready for this little boy and we are so excited to meet him.

Husband

I have the most wonderful, Amazing, INCREDIBLE, husband ever! He has been so great the past few weeks as my pain intensifies and things keep getting left undone. Not only is he going to school full-time, but he's also working, and last night was in-particularly hard. I couldn't sleep and I was in a lot of pain, he got up to get me a warm rag and drink of water. Then he got up with the kids changed diapers/underwear got them a movie going and all settled in while he got ready for work, so that I could sleep longer! And if that weren't enough he also unloaded the dish washer and put the couple of dishes I left in the sink last night in! He's such a sweet help and keeps rubbing my feet or back and trying to keep me comfortable. I love him so much and am so grateful for the wonderful Husband and Father he is. I am so blessed with such a wonderful little family, and I can't imagine what life would be like without him.

Thank you Honey for all the hard work you do for our family. You make us all so happy and comfortable. I am so relieved that I get to spend eternity with you. I can't think of anything better! You are amazing! I love you fiercely!

Almost 34 weeks...

I haven't been posting frequently mostly because we are just chillin' at home, waiting to have a baby. I know only 34 weeks, but this pregnancy has been so hard on my body I have my sciatic nerve pinched (this happened VERY early on in my pregnancy and I had it most of Andi's pregnancy so it wasn't surprising) I have pelvic displacement, which they would like to put me into physical therapy but between Rob's work and school schedule and having two kids at home and us only having 1 vehicle, it just won't happen. So the doctor suggested a wheel chair or walker... I only laugh at this because yeah, right with two toddlers! Then I have the usual morning sickness, (which is all day) hot flashes and being super uncomfortable due to a HUGE stomach, and a few other things. I haven't slept much lately and it's weird to know that I will be sleeping better in just a few short weeks when I have the baby. Yes, even if I wake up every two hours to feed him I will be sleeping more/better. Well now that I feel like the biggest complainer ever, onto other things that are better/wonderful!

Yesterday was wonderful, Rob had the day off and we got to spend the day all together as a family which was so wonderful! On top of that we got the house nice and deep cleaned together so that these next few weeks it will be easier for me to keep up and hopefully have very little to do. We also got the Christmas tree up and decorated! Rocky keeps looking at it and then telling me "Merry Christmas!" I am so excited that we have just over a month to wait till Santa shows up at our house. I have ALL of the kids shopping done! They have all their presents bought and stockings are ready to be stuffed! (Even the newest member of our family is good to go) Hopefully he shows up in time! I haven't shopped for Rob this year yet, (well I've gone I've looked I just have no idea what to do!) We decided that to save a little extra money this year we are only doing stockings for each other and are only allowed to spend $35 dollars. I have no idea what to get him that fits in a stocking keeps in budget and he'll love... I will have to keep working on that one.

I have also started packing my hospital bag... Well sort of mostly I've made the list and put a pair of nursing pajama's in my bag... that's it. But we're getting close and excited and have hopefully enough clothes for this little boy when he comes to keep him nice and warm! I have started making all his bibs, but haven't sewn any of them together they are all just pre-washed, ironed, cut and pinned. So that won't take too long to finish! Nuel's baby quilt is coming along, it's mostly done, except the part where I need to sew around all the little rectangles, (it takes forever and I can't sit for very long, or stand for very long... it's a vicious cycle.) So hopefully this week I will finish all the sewing!

I also made it my goal to have something different and fun going on each week till I finish this pregnancy and have Thanksgiving this week... and then no clue. I have another doctor's appointment on the 30th and hopefully we'll see if I have started doing anything, (considering I've had lots of contractions I am hoping to hear that SOMETHING is going on) But other than that I have nothing! No clue of what to do! I guess Andi and I are going to get our hair done on the 6th but that doesn't take very long and really won't help me as I am trying to focus on a fun goal/activity each week. And I am really wanting to go and get my toes and nails done (like I have for the other two) right before I hit full term. (hopefully I can get that in as it's finals week for Rob.) We're also looking into putting the kids into a dance thing for a week which would definitely help time go faster (it gives me something to do everyday that week for a couple hours and helps the kids get energy out in a way that Mommy can't do right now!) So we'll see if that works out, we have to see a few things first!

Haven't had much to say..

So I skipped out for a couple of weeks due to having nothing to share with everyone, haha. But I'm back so here goes my randomness...

We took the kids pictures a couple of weeks ago, we learned that me sweet baby girl is TERRIFIED of leaves. Who knew, I didn't know that they were scary but I was very wrong. The poor thing I have to drive back home and get Daddy, (the only one who can cure the tears about a fear) and finished taking the pictures. (Rocky loved the leaves and was so sad to leave, he loved running through them and hitting them with sticks) I just can't believe how fast they are growing up it is crazy! I was looking at pictures from the same time last year and I just can't believe how much they have changed.

Rocky has begun talking (finally) and is just such a wonderful brother! I can't believe how sweet he is when Andi gets hurt, or is sad. He just loves her and takes such good care of her! I am so proud of him! Earlier this week we were having family home evening and learning about Gratitude and Thanksgiving, we read a talk from the 1982 October General Conference and talked about things we can/should thank our Heavenly Father for, I love that both my kids we're thankful for Mickey Mouse. (he's a big hit at our house, we just love the older cartoons of him!) And then at bedtime when he said his prayers he said "thank you for toys, thank you for Mickey..." It was very sweet.

I am getting very tired of being pregnant... I am so grateful to be a woman who has the ability to get pregnant and carry a child but it is hard. And with each pregnancy it has gotten harder and on me physically. My contractions start earlier and it seems that I have more and more pains that I can't do anything about and it makes me have to sit on the couch WAY more than I would like to! It makes me feel like a bad Mom, I just sit with them on the floor and play as much as I can. But it's not the same and I miss chasing them and jumping around with them, and every time I do that I start having lots of contractions and have to go back to reading books to them or something less physical. I guess that's the price I pay this pregnancy. I can't wait to meet our little boy, to hold him and to feel that sweet joy of knowing that the last months have all been leading up to that moment. When he first holds your finger and you get to hold him close (in a much more comfortable way) and know that you would do it all over again for that just that one moment. And I get to sleep again, (I know newborns are supposed to keep you awake and your supposed to "enjoy" the sleep now, but I sleep more and WAY better when I am not pregnant, plus even when it's not more it's better sleep so I am ready) Only a little over 5 weeks, (hopefully!)

BUSY!!

It's been busy at the Doty house! We have had so much fun lately, we celebrated my 23rd Birthday on Friday, by going together as a family to Farmstead, (a corn maze and pumpkin patch.) The kids LOVED it and so did we! They had so many fun things for the kids to do and we just really enjoyed our time there! We will probably be going back before it closes for the season. The kids LOVED the pony rides, the jumping pillow, all the animals to pet! Then they had a corn box where my little son got to play while his sister napped. They had a cow train that was just adorable! They had made little cow train car things, that were pulled around by a tractor and the kids just thought it was awesome! The corn maze was so much fun for the kids they loved running down the paths and picking which way we should go! (If only I didn't tire so fast we could have been in the maze longer!) We took a hayride to go to the pumpkin patch where we picked a couple of pumpkins that we'll carve on Monday! My little girl got to pet and feed animals, my little boy got to be around tractors and ride things, the day just couldn't have been better! We were there all the way until bedtime, went home put the kids to bed and then I got to cuddle with my Hubby while we watched a movie... perfect day!

Saturday Hubby had work and Rocky had soccer, he wasn't really interested in playing he was still tired from the day before so we stayed till about 10 mins left in practice and decided that yes it was just too tiring today haha. Then we had a little less than 2 hours till we had to pick up the Hubby from work so we went and saw Cars 2 in the cheap theater (it's right next to where he works so if it went longer he would be able to come get us/have the car) But he got off work early so he got to watch part of the movie with us (that was so nice.) We all agreed that it was fun once but not a movie we'd be buying (even after I thought for sure that movie would end up under the tree for our little boy!) That's okay there are much better gifts to be given! It was my actual Birthday on Saturday so my Hubby gave me a present as soon as we got home, it was such a sweet gift! He had purchased me new scriptures (which I really did need, chapters had randomly gone missing and pages were falling out) plus he really didn't like that they had my maiden name on them. So I have a brand new pair of scriptures with my name on them! He even picked out a scripture case that it just wonderful and got me new things to mark my scriptures with! He is so thoughtful, I am so grateful for him taking the time to make me feel extra special on my birthday.

WAY TO GO BSU we watched their game at Hubby's grandma and grandpa's! I appreciate them keeping me comfortable while watching the game and not stressed on the edge of the seat! haha

My sweet little boy has been having trouble the last couple of weeks and I feel so bad, I know it's my fault. I've been sick again and I have not been good about personal scripture study with the children. I haven't been taking the time that he needs in order to feel special and loved, and to help him learn and progress. Meals have been hit and miss at our house and I feel so guilty. That is something that I truly enjoy providing for my family a nice home cooked meal 3 times a day, just brings me joy.

I have a lot work on this week and am hoping that I have the energy and patients to accomplish everything. (Or at least the important things each day)

Sickness and a Busy Weekend!

It's been a few days since I posted. We've had either blogger down or Andi making herself sick (She decided she didn't want to go to bed and cried so hard she threw up) Cleaning that up made me stay up later than what I wanted so I skipped them Rob got sick. Well we're all healthy now and getting into a fun week!

Yesterday we had a family home evening on being polite and using good words. We talked about how it makes us all happy and Heavenly Father happy when we speak kindly to each other. For our young children to try to illustrate this I got a cup of M&M's (one of their favorites!) and we took turns saying please and thank you for a treat, (because treats make us happy and just like when we talk nicely.) It was short and sweet. I love watching my children grow up and developing into these sweet people and seeing them love each other, and attempt to take care of each other. Though they fight, we are all learning; to be patient, to be compassionate, and to be understanding. I hope that someday they look back on our FHE's with a smile and remember that we love them and that we had fun learning together.

We're looking forward to going to Linder Farm's later this week, which I am ecstatic to be taking our kids to! We've never let them go and pick their pumpkin before and they have a corn maze and all kinds of fun things for the kids. It's nice to have something to look forward to today.

Now I see...

I need to go out frequently with my children, it helps me keep my sanity. I did not make it out somewhere today, and around 5pm (after a day of no naps again) my wonderful children decided it was now time to play rough which is laughter shortly followed by much crying. It wasn't their crazy play where they run around giggling at each other and tag each other and roar and think they are the funniest thing on earth. (I missed that today) I was feeling rather fat this evening and low on patients and with them not listening and making each other cry, I was missing my Hubby. I kept just trying to think, would I rather not be here though? Would I rather someone else be taking care of them? I love them so much, but I am tired. Finally I spoke very firmly with them and decided that Rocky needed more encouragement to do good. So overtime he helped his sister we gave high 5's and told him he was awesome! When he cleaned up the same thing "You are awesome, you rock!" and "I love you! I am so proud of you." And his attitude improved, not to perfect but so much better than where he was! My daughter needed extra cuddling (and sleep) but she was able to calm down enough to help clean up. She loves to help clean up and I love how well she does it! She had a really hard time falling asleep. So now I see (again) that sometimes it's okay to wait on the cleaning. That even in the rain when I am feeling very pregnant I should just go out, take my camera, jump in some puddles. Make sure both of the me and the kids have fun, creative fun, not just playing with the toys in the house. Even play dough was boring today, we just are going to have to do something different tomorrow!

I should mention the morning. It was bliss, (which is probably why I felt so frustrated at the evenings attitude) The kids had an extra playmate who was super happy, my daughter and her played so well together. Then my son joined in and we all just had so much fun. We made muffins for breakfast. My kids hardly touched their lunch, (maybe that's why they had such a hard time.) But they played so well and made lots of messes with their toys (good messes) They made the morning easy, enjoyable, and just bliss.

Oh Wednesday

Preschool was good we worked on the letter B. I had made beehives for the kids with big black letter B and had printed and cut out lots of bees for them to color and put into the hive. Andi loved it and did AWESOME. She kept telling me the b sound and just really loved our story that we read to go with the lesson. Rocky didn't want to color his bees unless Mommy helped and I was trying to help both children. I had cut out the bees the night before and lightly taped them onto a piece of construction paper so that the could color and them move the bee's themselves into the hive. I am glad I put all the work into the lesson and coloring project even though I cut out 18 bees (9 for each of them) only 6 were used... Oh well. Hopefully Rocky remembers he can color by himself again soon!

We went to the pet store to take in a water sample to make sure our water was good before we added more fish. Sure enough there was a high (but not bad) ammonia level so we have to wait till Saturday before we can add more. But at least we know so hopefully all our fish won't die (again) Thank you Petco for having a 30 day guarantee on your fish!

Just a Tuesday

Our poor babies had a really hard night last night, with all of us getting very little sleep. That made our day a little harder than usual. We hadn't watched hardly any TV for a while so I decided that it would be okay to watch a couple movies to help them be happy and content. So we watched Beauty and the Beast, and The Princess and the Frog. I hate seeing my sweet children upset when I know the cure is so simple! It's amazing how much of an impact the simple act of resting our bodies can do for our attitude.

As I was sitting there with my babies thinking this is a harder day, and due to my pregnant self I was almost in tears, when I caught myself thinking "are you serious? you're about to cry because your children are learning how their bodies work/don't work when they don't receive enough sleep" Then I decided to instead focus on all the many things that I could be doing, like getting the family gift exchange set-up for this year. And then decided to just think about all of our wonderful blessings. I have a beautiful home, 2 healthy children with a 3rd on the way, I have a wonderful Husband, who has just started a job that he loves, he is able to go to a good school and receive further education. There is plenty of food in my fridge, the bills are paid. I have been given many tools to help my children learn the gospel, and for us all to grow closer together. Then my thoughts finally turned where I wanted them to go, it may not always be easy, it is always worth it. And that this calling gives me the greatest joy. And that sometimes it's okay to be tired and watch a couple movies. It was nice to just cuddle and play with the kids, we normally get lots of play time but not a lot of cuddle time. It was a special day.

Today I went to a store to look for a baby gift for a friend who will soon have her 1st little one, (a little boy) This store is a trap for me, I ALWAYS end up spending more than I planned to because that little boy section is just full of cute little clothes, and I happen to be having a 2nd boy in December! But I bought my birthday gift, I purchased an outfit for my little one coming in December, and then a matching shirt for my daughter (I already had a few shirt options for my oldest that would go perfect with theirs) and so now I have some matching outfits for the children, so that when this new little one comes I can take lots of cute pictures of them all matching! haha But I love it and it makes me so happy to have pictures of my little ones!

Here's hoping for a better nights rest and happier children tomorrow so that preschool goes smoothly and that we can do something fun afterwards!

Rocky can ROLL his belly!

Rocky during family home evening, (which neither child really paid any attention) they instead sat there (more like ran around) showing each other their belly. But the FUNNIEST thing happened when Rocky started rolling his belling. I think I might need to get a video camera it's pretty much hilarious. Hopefully they will remember anything from our short lesson on how to pray.

Christmas shopping has begun! (it may seem early but I want to be done before Thanksgiving, so I can enjoy the Holiday and focus on teaching our children about Christmas and I'll need time to finish all their homemade gifts!) I am taking care of Andi's presents from Mommy and Daddy this week. I am really excited to get her gifts because she's our only girl so far and she's SO girlie! She's is getting lots of girl gifts this year and I am excited to see her face! And it's fun to see the differences between the two! (Rocky will definitely be ready for another boy to play with!)

Coloring and Messes!

A tiring day, wonderful but oh so tiring! It usually is and as long as I don't loose my temper that day (I have been getting tired and cranky lately, being pregnant is hard sometimes) I can still feel like it was wonderful! Watching conference was wonderful, the first session we colored with the kids trying to get them to stay in the living room to listen. The second session I was trying desperately to get Andi to take a nap (she is barely 2 and thinks she doesn't need a nap anymore, but she does) so I relaxed with her on the couch and just cuddled her till she fell asleep... and so did I. So I missed half of the second session.

When I woke I laid Andi down on the couch and went to look for my Hubby and son, well I found a trail to follow to find Rocky... it was a trail of water (no he didn't have an accident) but he had grabbed two pitchers of water and spilled them ALL OVER his room! He had all his kitchen equipment out at his little play kitchen and water EVERYWHERE! His clothes were soaked so I thought; I wonder where your Daddy is and if he knows what happened to the house? I went into the office and there was my sweet, hardworking Hubby studying hard for his next test. I asked him so do you know where your son is... what he's up to, what he did? He had no clue! At least it was only water and Rocky was willing to help clean it up! What a cuttie he is! Then I went to the kitchen to clean the pitchers and refill them.... Orange juice was all over my floor, first thought; Oh thank heavens it's only in the kitchen! and there wasn't much left! So that was fun, the rest of the day I got to watch my sweet kids chase after each other laughing and squealing.

Unfortunately, Rob had to finish an online test so we had a late dinner to accommodate that which made Andi VERY unhappy and the poor thing just wanted cuddled but I was making fried chicken and couldn't have her in the kitchen with the hot oil. She cried for a good 30 mins while I made dinner, (Daddy came and comforted her a couple of times while he was studying.) Then once we had dinner together and a miracle happened! Rocky tried EVERYTHING on his plate!!!!!! This NEVER happens sometimes we wonder how that boy can even be alive with how little he eats sometimes! But he's been doing AWESOME! We decided that there can't be anymore "unhealthy" snacks, so no more fruit snacks, and cookies around our house. And he while he hasn't loved all the small changes I keep slowly making like it's a fresh fruit or veggie for a snack or homemade bread (any kind banana, zucchini, or potato -that's pretty much all I make- until fall and then I'll make some pumpkin) But he did so good at dinner I am so proud of him!

The kids took a bath while I cleaned up some messes and afterward they didn't want to get dressed! haha (Who likes clothes anyway?) But Rocky ran into the office naked with his hat and sunglasses on and his bubble gun, so funny and cute! His favorite thing to wear is his hat and sunglasses and have some sort of "gun" all he has is a bubble gun, squirt gun (both toy story themed) and then and little nerve type gun with no bullets) haha so it's just hilarious! Andi likes to do the same things as her brother so she got some sunglasses and they were taking turns with their tie. You might have to be there Mom to think that everything they do is cute (well most everything) but I took pictures so you can be the judge. (Pictures didn't get posted because we felt they were better kept for family) :) But they are just so amazing and going to be young for such a short amount of time that I just can't help it!

Since I am due in December I have started to think about Christmas... I know there's still lots of time but I want everything done before December 1st so that no matter what happens we are prepared for it! Last year we tried to make sure that the kids knew that it's about Christ's birth but I don't think they got anything from it except that they got to open lots of cool new toys...(granted they were 1 and 2) So this year I am thinking about a whole different approach, though I haven't figured to much about how I want to do it, I have a few ideas but I am having a hard time finding the things that I need to do it! So once I figure out more I'll share what we're doing! There's still time so for now we're more of looking at where we'll put the Christmas tree. This year I don't know how long we'll be able to hold off putting it up! haha But don't worry it won't go up in October! I am hoping that we'll be good this year and wait till after Thanksgiving. Well I still need to go work on the kids Christmas stuff and get everything going so I think I'm done.

But today I want to remember us all coloring together during conference. Remember pointing out who Andi was coloring (they were pages off The Friend's website so they were of kids praying, and the prophets.) And listening to my children try to say names. And remember how cute Andi is when she's tired of trying to say the name that she starts pointing out their nose, and eyes to try and change the subject!

October 1st 2011-Conference Weekend-

Today we got to listen to General Conference, I felt like at times it was more of an attempt. The first session I was able to listen well to everything except the first talk and the last talk. (I was so disappointed that just when Elder Uchtdorf got up to spoke my children decided they needed a hundred things and we're now getting tired, but I am very excited to read it!) Anyway so as conference was starting I decided to think of two or three questions that I had been pondering lately. My first one was answered as soon as I was able to sit down and really pay attention. Sister Barbara Thompson spoke on receiving revelation. As a mother of young children (and I am sure most mothers can relate) I find myself constantly trying to find the best way to teach and communicate with my children. (especially because my 3 year old is just starting to talk) As I listened to her talk and heard the different ways that we receive revelation it just hit me! As I have been praying daily I have been answered constantly and consistently with little things to help me teach my children. The Lord would never leave us alone while we are trying to do His will in raising His children! All those times I have felt those tears of frustration because I feel like I must be doing something wrong, why else would my child behave in such a manner, and have prayed to know what to do I have felt the comfort of the Holy Ghost and have had my mind enlightened. The Lord knows I am no where near being a perfect parent, and has been helping me as a parent since before the day I gave birth to my first child. What a loving Heavenly Father we have, he may not have given me a step by step handbook on how to raise Rocky or how to raise Andi. But He has given and continues to give the help I need (which trust me is a lot.) I am so grateful for her talk and reminding me of just how loving our Heavenly Father is and that Rob and I are not alone in this parenting thing. We have the greatest teachers of all available to us if we only will chose to listen and obey. *And as a side note one of the things that my mind was enlightened with one morning a few weeks ago was to start personal scripture study with each child. I take each one (all two of them) aside each morning (or mid-morning as the day may go) and we pray together and read scriptures just the two of us. This has made a tremendous difference in my sons talking. He has even been better about tantrums and will take time to listen to me, and sometime (in those rare shinning moments) talk with me about things. I know that the Lord listens and answers our prayers, even when we are to blind to notice where those brilliant ideas are coming from.

There was another quote that I want to take note of which is from Jose L Alonso; "Do the right thing at the right time without delay." I have felt like I should call or go visit a friend or family member and then immediately thought, "well I'll need cookies, or a cake, or bread, anything to take over there so that I am just not showing up out of the blue!" or "what could I possibly do once I am there? I'm 22, and 26 weeks pregnant with my 3rd child!" I have failed to act, a simple phone call may have sufficed, and my 2 and 3 year old may have behaved perfectly had I walked/driven to that sisters house. I have need to repent, in the 4 years I have been in Relief Society (and married) I have felt out of place much of the time and have skipped many activities because I didn't feel that I belonged that I wasn't wanted or needed there. There are plenty of wonderful, capable sisters there that I surely would not be missed nor even noticed if I show up or not. But I would notice the difference in my life if I didn't go. So it is just time to move forward with my new resolve; JUST DO IT ALREADY! I may not be able to offer much but if I am feeling prompted the Lord will ensure that I am able to help. I just need to listen, AND DO IT!

September 30th 2011

I was apart from my sweet Hubby just about all of today, which is very tiring with my two toddlers and 26 weeks pregnant. I really appreciate what a wonderful father and husband he is. I definitely notice the days spent away from him in my back. I know tomorrow Andi (the biggest Daddy's Girl EVER) will not want him out of her sight tomorrow!

My Hubby and I read a book (well half of it for me) from Elder L. Tom Perry called Family Ties: A message for Fathers. I really recommend this book for EVERYONE my Hubby was in the living room reading it and so I asked him to read out loud for me, and while I didn't hear the first couple chapters (which is where Rob said he really is talking directly to Husbands and Fathers) But it really just reminded me of the most important things in raising our children. I really enjoy listening to what Rob's role in our home is supposed to be, (which he does such an amazing, loving, and tender job taking care of his responsibilities, and lifting me up as I try to fulfill mine.) I think it's a good reminder for women to know what our Husbands role is and allow them fill it. Allowing the Priesthood to be at the head of our home is such a special blessing. Elder L Tom Perry said (speaking to the men of the church); "Enjoy the inspiration of God, our Eternal Father, to lead, guide, and direct your families in righteousness. You stand at the head of the only organization I know of that can be eternal. Should not that charge and responsibility receive top priority in in your life?" I am so grateful to my wonderful companion whom I get to work side-by-side with everyday to raise our beautiful children and the wonderful blessings the Priesthood brings into our home.

We had left the house so that Rob could study for a test and went to my children's favorite park, which is the train depot we spent hours just walking around and found out that Andi is TERRIFIED of toads, which of course meant that Rocky loved it, he loved it so much after looking at it he wanted to squish it with his hand foot or whatever he could. So after saving the toads life, we looked at the new fish in the pond, (they had been gone for the summer) and climbed on a train. And just got to enjoy exploring with my children. They are growing up so fast I can hardly believe it! Just take a look...

What I Needed

I have been a terrible blogger. I seem to get into the habit and out of the habit quite quickly so I sat back and tried to evaluate why that might be and how I can do better. And then it hit me, I was trying to blog just what my family was doing, bigger events or at least days where I took lots of pictures and inevitably I would fall behind. Then the task would feel far to great and I would give up. (and the task just became bigger) And things that I really wanted to say about my family and life and everything in general just never made it there, (or became a rare occasion.)

Wanting to share what I am learning as a Mother and a Wife, even to make people laugh, because yes, it took me that long to figure that out. But mostly for me to see where I've been and where I'm headed, (so basically my journal, minus all the things that I probably shouldn't put into a journal because there is no way I want my children someday reading that, to say the least there will be blushing in Heaven that day.)

So some of this maybe more intimate details of me, other days it could be just my daily happening and thing I would like to remember, and I would prefer only uplifting comments as I open up my world to you...

Today was special, I decided to take a little mommy time and read old e-mails and such between my hubby and I while we were dating. We were ridiculous! One of the old conversations I had saved (from when Messenger was cool and you'd sit and type a conversation for way longer than if you had just called) a giggled at the funny things we wrote. My sweet Hubby had changed his picture to one when he was little (about 2 years old) and then I told him how cute he was and he responded, "If you want to babies like that YOU HAVE TO MARRY ME" followed by a laugh and "I got you now" I could not help but smile at this as it was almost exactly 5 months before we became engaged, and was about the first starts of "hinting" toward the subject of marriage. (I should maybe mention that we had been dating for just under 7 months) I am so grateful I saved those messages, it's just fun to have a reminder of our dating life and how we talked then and how it's changed over the years. We still laugh and joke and have so much fun together, the difference is we have much more tender feelings for each other than I could have ever imagined. I am pretty sure that's what makes me enjoy the start so much, I have gotten to see a little bit of where it's taken us.

During this time I was sitting with my son and watching a movie with them when I

noticed Andi had been quiet for the past 5 or so minutes, which for this time of day was very common she should have fallen asleep by now, so I got up to check on her (she was only around the couch and just out of sight.) This is what I saw...

A carpeted floor covered in a powdered sugar mess! I could only laugh! My little boy hovered over the couch to see what I was doing and he too thought it was funny! The couch had a light dusting of sugar on it too as I put Andi there while I grabbed Rob to take a look (he grabbed the camera) and then I proceeded to

fill our vacuum with a couple of pounds of powdered sugar. This showed me that Andi was not in the mood to cuddle and take her nap. And that she would need some extra "Mommy-Daughter" time that night because clearly she was bored! I really did love the little mess that interrupted my time travel, I think I would have kept reading all night had she not made the mess. (Although I do need to buy more vacuum bags tomorrow!) I couldn't punish that sweet little girl, how could I, I had never taught her not to get into those items, if anything I had taught her the opposite as she cooks and bakes with me frequently! She gets it out of the cupboard for me or more frequently I can hand it to her and she'll put it away. So all I could do was smile and tell her that we couldn't do that again, and that it wastes our yummy food.

I have been trying to find time to take the children's fall pictures and have been waiting for the appropriate weather, and it's finally cooling back down so I thought that having some girly getting ready time would be fun for our short "Mommy-Daughter" time that night... The results are at the top of the post because I had trouble moving them down and it's late.